Looking for Male, Bisexual Friends.

One of the reasons I started this blog was to create a place where I could explore aspects of my personality that I've neglected for too long: nature based spirituality and being bisexual. Today I want to discuss my bisexuality because I don't know any other bisexuals to talk to, so I have to express my thoughts in writing. I knew that I found men attractive when I was about 12-13.

It was after spending the night at a friend's house where we compared erections and stroked each other off until we fell asleep. We would masturbate together after school, during sleep-overs and often while watching porn flicks. I focused as much on the beautiful cocks getting sucked and fucked as much as I did the sexy, horny girls!! I thought I was "straight" because my strict, conservative, Mormon upbringing told I was. I tried to pretend I didn't like men but always kept going back to look at cock porn and other gay porn.

I knew I was bisexual, how could I deny it? I was just as aroused sexually by girls as I was with guys!! I then found my soul mate and she accepted my sexuality without hesitancy. I'm very happily married to her and have been for 12 years now, but that doesn't mean I'm no longer attracted to men!! Quite the opposite, in fact. My wife knows that she comes first in my life, but she's not bothered if I flirt with guys online because we have something of an "open relationship. She'd rather I flirt or "cyber" with a guy online than worry about me meeting up with someone in person in some seedy motel with the potential of a sexually transmitted disease. My wife and I are committed partners to the end but right now we are both very open-minded and believe that there are many ways to have a successful marriage because clearly monogamy doesn't work for everyone!! Anyway, I could go on, but suffice to say that my wife and I are very comfortable with our sexual arrangements. 

It means the world to me that she accepts me for who I am and I am forever committed and grateful to her for that support because I accept her exactly for who she is too. Our relationship is bigger and stronger than to get hung up on "how it's supposed to be done." But, I can't talk about this to my family as they are still very conservative, judgmental Mormons (not all of them, but most). And, while my wife's support alone helps tons, I would like a male, bisexual friend or two that I can relate with from time to time. Not just sexually but emotionally and culturally able to get, accept and appreciate my bisexual side. I want a bi-guy friend who'll send me the "male picture of the day" and or a good joke. I don't have a bi friend that I can talk to when I want a real "guy-to-guy" chat that goes beyond football highlights and tough-guy talk. Don't get me wrong I love football, but I need more from a male-male relationship. 

I need to find a bisexual guy friend who doesn't feel uncomfortable having a deep, emotional discussion, no drama, just conversations about living as a bisexual, feelings, emotions, sexuality and other things straight guys usually don't like talking about. Anyway, I've gone on way too long with this post. I didn't realize that I wanted to write so much and I feel like I've only exposed the tip of the iceberg!! I'll have to do a series of posts about my bisexuality. So, I'm looking to meet sensitive, male, bisexual friends between the ages of 25-40 for email exchanges only. If that's you then mail me and maybe we can become internet buddies!! I just want to make some guy friends who aren't all straight, "macho men" assholes who have the emotional depth of a neanderthal. Also, aggressive guys turn me off. Anyway, email me: koffikra@gmail.com

~The Green Man Has Spoken~